Happy New Year!

Wishing you all a happy and prosperous 2013!

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I’m so excited to see what the new year holds!

I would like to say a quick word of thanks to all I hold dear to my heart and who have shared so much with me!

Special thanks to my family (Mom, Dad, Karen and Martin). To my sisters from other misters; Monique, Sasha, Jully, Maria, Dushani, Judy and Nita.

To those who I’ve been blessed to cross paths with and have kept in touch with over the years. Thank you.

To those who have taught me lessons both directly and indirectly.

Thank you all. I love you all so much!

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I knew by naming names I was taking a chance on leaving out special people!! 

Thank you to Reta C. and Jen N. who have always been major positive forces in my life.  I’m honoured to know and call these beautiful and strong women my friends! 

Thanks to Cuz Rawle, DG, Fabion, Nina and Chris for always making me smile.  : )

Though he may not know it nor like this but thanks to Kevin for teaching me that the words “I’m not ready to settle down” is actually a positive thing. 

(Just a word of advice to people who may be ‘waiting for’ or ‘holding on to’ someone who is ‘confused or finding themselves’, if you’re the only one making the effort in a relationship, it’s likely that you’re the only one that wants to be in it.  If it feels like the other person isn’t trying to meet you half way, allow them to go because chances are, they are actually doing you a favour – if it’s meant to be, you will know – Relationships are not 50/50 – it’s 100% on both ends.)

I’m sorry if I’ve missed anyone, it’s not intentional – there have been so many people who have touched my life and I would love to thank them all!!

Funny Story…I can’t make this stuff up.

I’m not sure if it’s the season or the weather or the ‘looking back at 2012’ but I’ve been feeling off lately.  I don’t like feeling like this and it use to be something I couldn’t control.

I’m very open about my brush with depression so I know the signs of that heaviness in one’s mind, body and soul.  I feel lucky to have made it through the experience and learn from it so I know when to recognize the feeling and stop it from forming into a snowball.

The people in my life care for me but often think that I would never be down or have no reason to feel so.  Well, like you, I’m human.  We all have ‘something’ that may sour our mood.

Nonetheless, I’m not here to bring anyone down.  No, it’s quite the opposite my friend.  I’m here to try and make you smile!

Because I know the effects of depression, I want to let you know that, if you’re reading this, and you’re feeling down, I’m here for you!

I’m known to be a bit of a joker, and though I could give you some of my best material, it may not relay as well through text, and you may think I’m a bitch for laughing at certain situations but most times, you would have either had to of been there or let me explain it in person.

My family though, no matter how I tell you, makes me laugh.  Most times, not intentionally and most of the time, I’m not laughing when the event occurs but I often see the humor in it after.

For example, my father.  If you remember “The Cosby Show” then you will remember the father, Cliff Huxtable.  Well, that’s my Dad.  He’s silly and serious and sometimes when he’s serious I find it silly.  This is one story that often makes me and my friends laugh whenever it comes up.

One night, I went out with some friends to a party downtown.  While we were leaving some guys were following after us.  Hot chicks like us, it wasn’t surprising…lol. I kid. Anyways, they were calling out to us and like the ladies we were (and still are), we acknowledged them politely then began on our way.  Well, they thought we were being rude because we weren’t stopping and they started to call us names and chase us so for some reason we all began to run. It seemed funny at first until they appeared to be getting angry.  We all realized that this was no joke and ran faster, some in heels and others kicked of their heels.  Surprisingly, we were all out running all the guys, which for a second didn’t make sense but adrenaline will kick in when you need it most.  My friend ran ahead into an alley and called to us to follow her.  She had found an unlocked door.  This was another strange event but again, I was being chased so I didn’t question it.  We all hustled in and waited, hoping they didn’t see which way we had turned.  My friend locked the door behind us. We all huddled together in a corner of the dark cold room and were moments away from shitting ourselves!

What felt like hours was actually just a few moments. We didn’t hear anything so one of my friends decided to see if the coast was clear and as she approached the door there was a sudden ‘BANG, BANG, BANG’.  We all screamed with our eyes shut and held each other tighter.  The banging was getting stronger.  There were no voices, just banging!  It wouldn’t stop…two of the girls started screaming louder and then suddenly, I opened my eyes…I was dreaming!

I was relived to know it had all been a nightmare, until…I heard the banging again.  How could this be…I thought. I was awake.  Or was I?  Was this one of those stupid inception type dream in a dream (I loved that movie btw)? It couldn’t be, it all felt so real.  Then the banging happened again.  This time I knew it was real.  It was coming from my window.  Now I was nervous.  Who the hell would be banging on my window?  Burglars don’t bang…do they?

No, they don’t.  To avoid having my hair turn all white, I decided to look out the window of the spare room (which was right beside mine) because if I looked out my window and saw two eyes of someone or something looking back at me so that our two eyes would make four. hmph…no way man!

So I walked slowly into the spare room and open to slates of the venetian blinds and what do I see?  My father….climbing down a ladder looking.  WTF??

Let it be known, this was at 3am!  So I go downstairs with the intent of blasting him.  I open the door and ask him ‘what’s your problem man?’ to which he replied ‘You need to get your hearing checked’.  What??  This coming from the man who you can’t talk to until he puts his ears on – making reference to his hearing aids.

I tell him he’s crazy and my heart was stuck in my throat and he said – well you shouldn’t sleep so sound.  WTF??  Are you serious??

So, it turns out he forgot his key and because his cell had died (of course when he needed it most) he had to drive around looking for a pay phone – as they are far and few between now.

This is my father.  This is one of the many stories that have formed my life.  I can’t make this stuff up.  Why would I?

I realize that this will not rid you of any depressed feelings but if it has made anyone laugh please let me know and I will tell you more!  There are tons of stories! You have to hear the adventures of Leppy.  It makes my Dad look crazy but really, he just likes making people laugh.

It’s a new year…whose with me?

It’s that time to make a new year’s resolution.

For the past few years, my resolution was not to make a new year’s resolution!  Looking back, I’ve done extremely well I must say.

This year, I’ve decided to stop taking the easy way out and set some goals that I will see to the end. 

A little tidbit about me…I’m great at starting initiatives but if I lose interest in something I tend to trail off and move on to the next project.  I always thought I would be great at opening new stores or help start up new businesses but I lost interest before finding out more details..lol. I kid. I still think I would be great at that!

See that’s how easy it happens, I started about resolutions and I’m already on to something else.

Back to the matter at hand. So I’ve decided to set two resolutions. 

This first one is the common weight matter. I managed to lose 25lbs, with no resolution this year.  For 2013 I’m adding checkpoints to keep me on track.

Losing 25lbs has been great! I feel better, my clothes fit better and overall I’m healthier, another 35lbs will have me fit and lean! I know if I can do 25 with little focus, I can do 35 with a great plan and determination!

The second one revolves around writing. I am determined to write daily and get one of my pieces published. Even if I have to publish it myself. I prefer hand writing over typing (that’s just me) and I read an article with great advice!

Get a year calendar notebook where each page is dedicated to the day, were talking over 365 pages, and you write something, anything, everything, everyday!

By the end of the year you’ll have 365 pages of writings! This would work for artists, songwriters, students…anyone who wants to perfect their talents!

Believe me, practice makes perfect and theory makes sense!

So these are my challenges to myself!

I will also include resolution checkpoints in my schedule to ensure I stay on track!

If you would like to join me in my journey, send over your blog name or email address in the comments below and it’ll keep us accountable!

2013 is going to be a spectacular year! Are you with me?

And Scene…Fade to 2013?…

Well, we made it my friends!

We made it past the doomed Dec 21, 2012. People seriously believed that the world, as we know it, was going to be done and over with. I never really followed it to know how it was suppose to happen but I can tell you if I did believe in this apocalyptic event, I would have stopped paying my bills a long time ago and traveled the world. Wait, I can’t believe I just thought that.. Why would I wait for something massive to happen before going to see the world! Hmmm…. I’m onto something here. But I digress.

We made it past Christmas Day too.

I’m not sure if you felt it too but this Christmas season wasn’t the same.
There was no ‘buzz in the air’.

It could be the lack of snow in the city (which I’m not complaining about). It could be that I did my shopping in October so I wasn’t in the malls to hear the holiday music or see the shoppers bustling around looking for that perfect gift for their loved one. 

Actually, I was in a grocery store the other day and heard ‘Cuts like a Knife’ playin overhead but unless that song was about carving turkeys, I don’t think it counts as a Christmas tune.

I didn’t have any parking lot confrontations, which is unheard of. Or maybe it was because I only watched ‘National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation’ once and didn’t see ‘Elf’ at all.

A few people I’ve spoken with have agreed that something is different. They said if it wasn’t for the children in their lives that they may not have gone all out. All I can say is thank God for children. They truly keep the sparkle of Christmas alive.

Though I have no kids of my own, there are 9 kids that I’ve know since their birth and all of whom I hold dear in my heart. Most of them are tweens now and they already have everything in the world so I have no clue what to get them but gift cards.

Well, regardless of what the difference is, I am grateful for many things such as my health, my family (by blood and by love), my career, my home and mom’s fresh bread (made from scratch – no bread makers here).

One thing I do feel is something big coming for 2013! I have no clue what it is or what form it’ll come in but it’s near.

Over the years I’ve experienced these feelings of when there is a shift in my life. I’m not crazy…not in the psycho sense anyways.

We all have a sixth sense, it’s just a matter of tuning into it. When I get these feelings, something always comes of it. This one is going to be major!

I’m looking forward to the change.

Change is evolution and that’s the only way we grow as individuals.

Change is often for the better. Don’t resist it…embrace it and believe me it will work in your favour!

2013 is going to be a spectacular year!!

The 12 Days of a Social Media Christmas – Day 12 – **Merry Christmas!!!**

On the 12th day of Christmas my e-friend shared with me…

Twelve instagramers snapping

Eleven skypers skyping

Ten bloggers blogging

Nine texters texing

Eight avatars smiling

Seven googlers emailing

Six Youtubers Youtubing

Five zillion ringtonessss

Four Twitter retweets

Three pins on Pintrest

Two likes on Facebook

of a pic taken with my Samsung Galaxy III

Merry Christmas and happy holidays to you and yours! I hope Santa gets my hint and hooks me up with the Samsung Galaxy III!!  C’mon Santa, open your bag and hook a sista up!! Don’t make me regret being good all year!! : )

I hope you enjoyed my new 12 days of Christmas!  Wishing you and your family a happy and safe holiday season.  Have a happy and prosperous 2013!!

KD

Lost One Series – Notorious B.I.G.

I can believe Christmas is tomorrow! Wow.

The other day I was listening to the radio and I realized how many artists I enjoyed listening to have passed away from tragic events.

My next choice wasn’t my favourite rapper but there is no doubt that he was a great one.

Christopher Wallace aka, Notorious B.I.G., Biggie Smalls, Biggie was a force to be reckoned with. His rhymes flowed with ease which made his style so well liked. He spoke about his life and the reality of what he went through.

It’s not surprising some would call him one of the greatest Rappers of his time.

Reports surrounding his death give slightly different stories but it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t take away the fact that hip hop lost one of their children tragically leaving behind his child fatherless. 

A part of me felt he knew his fate, the other part of me thinks he called it upon himself.  I’m a strong believer in Law of Attraction, its the theory of ‘one will attract their fate by the thoughts they put in the universe be it negative or positive’. I’m not saying he wished it upon himself. If certain thoughts run through your mind constantly, then it’s not surprising ig it becomes a reality.

All in all, Biggie will always be a respected Rapper and his music will always live on.

One of my favourite Biggie songs will always be in my list of great songs!

The 12 Days of a Social Media Christmas – Day 11

On the 11th day of Christmas my e-friend shared with me…

Eleven skypers skyping

Ten bloggers blogging

Nine texters texing

Eight avatars smiling

Seven googlers emailing

Six Youtubers Youtubing

Five zillion ringtonessss

Four Twitter retweets

Three pins on Pintrest

Two likes on Facebook

Of a pic taken with my Samsung Galaxy III